In my almost eternal struggle between faith rational and my head, I have always made room for the possibility that someone can take care of someone who can not see, someone who is out there forever ... Ever thought it was someone close to me, then added other little people that neither knew. A few years ago I discovered that there were also the angels here, in life, people that live and never before imagined.
After all I've analyzed what I remembered back, I realized that I actually have them and more, because of which I have saved all my life and have been several all the possibilities out some damaged and much.
Yesterday afternoon I was with friends in a chat, just a few minutes, as had many things to do yet and I decided to retire after only a few minutes of greeting. When I left, I was going around in your head all this beautiful energy that I give and I sometimes see things differently. And then I forgot, because I completely devoted myself to enjoy my little angel, that brought me back to life at a time, joy, happiness.
With all these things flying around my head I slept quietly. This morning as I showered, I stood a moment watching the water running and my head was turned suddenly and started to remember what had happened that night earthquake.
That Friday afternoon, while working and talking in the chat with someone, I got the message that should begin developing a project that I would require about 15 hours of work to accomplish on time and took advantage to inform that person that we would talk for about a month due to my work and that we communicate only by mail just to let us know how we were. I told him right then that my mother called to warn that that night would not go to sleep at home, he had decided to stay and wrap up a couple of pending projects that have had to rest on Sunday and start the full following Monday.
A few words about and seeing how we might coordinate to talk a few minutes a day during my absence, he spent a little more time and these things a little untimely, I decided that maybe I was going home. My fatigue had expired and would rather sleep. Fortunately.
I went to my mother, I took some tea and lay down to sleep, a couple of hours later did all what we already know ...
This morning, in the shower, I realized for sure that if I had made my first decision, most likely, or with 100% security (analyzing everything that happened) would have left my office to pick up the car and run with my family. The truth is that the first step of leaving the door I would have fallen a massive wall and indeed over, I would have become another of the victims. If I had made some progress again, huge beams, ceiling 5 meters high, and huge walls have fallen on my car and there would be no escape.
All this, combined with other situations I have experienced in my life, make me safe, very safe, that there is more than one person watching me from wherever. I have no rational explanation for it, but I firmly believe, and I think an act of faith is worth more than a rational explanation.
Now I know that never again will I tell someone I care that I see for a while because of my work. Now I realize that would have been much to lose that contact.
I'ma lucky in many ways, I can not deny, on the contrary, just thankful.
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